Diagnosis

I started this blog as part of my healing. Therapeutic blogging sounded better than actual writing. I can then share my story to let others that are going through what I am going through not feel so alone. Until I was invited to an online support group for adults with mental illnesses, I felt so alone. My diagnosis are both environmental and chemical. I am scared of myself sometimes. I feel out of control of my emotions most days. I have a very loving husband who helps keep me focused on the important things in life and just allows me to cry or scream or just sit quietly with him.

My diagnosis are:

Bipolar Disorder: Bipolar disorder or bipolar affective disorder (historically known as manic-depressive disorder or manic depression) is a psychiatric diagnosisfor a mood disorder in which people experience disruptive mood swings. These encompass a frenzied state known as mania (or hypomania) usually alternated with symptoms of depression. Bipolar disorder is defined by the presence of one or more episodes of abnormally elevated energy levels,cognition, and mood with or without one or more depressive episodes.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bipolar_disorder

Borderline Personality Disorder: Borderline personality disorder (BPD) (called emotionally unstable personality disorder, borderline type in the ICD-10) is a personality disorder marked by a prolonged disturbance of personality function, characterized by unusual variability and depth of moods. These moods may secondarily affect cognition and interpersonal relations.^{[n 1]}
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Borderline_personality_disorder

Agoraphobia: Agoraphobia (from Greek ἀγορά, "marketplace"; and φόβος/φοβία, -phobia) is an anxiety disorder characterized by anxiety in situations where the sufferer perceives the environment as being difficult to escape or get help. These situations include, but are not limited to, wide-open spaces, as well as uncontrollable social situations such as may be met in shopping malls, airports, and on bridges. Agoraphobia is defined within the DSM-IV TR as a subset of panic disorder, involving the fear of incurring a panic attack in those environments.^[1] The sufferer may go to great lengths to avoid those situations, in severe cases becoming unable to leave their home or safe haven.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Agoraphobia

PTSD with delayed onset: Posttraumatic stress disorder^{[note 1]} (PTSD) is a severe anxiety disorder that can develop after exposure to any event that results inpsychological trauma.^[1][2][3] This event may involve the threat of death to oneself or to someone else, or to one's own or someone else's physical, sexual, or psychological integrity,^[1] overwhelming the individual's ability to cope. As an effect of psychological trauma, PTSD is less frequent and more enduring than the more commonly seen post traumatic stress (also known as acute stress response).^[4] Diagnostic symptoms for PTSD include re-experiencing the original trauma(s) through flashbacks or nightmares, avoidance of stimuli associated with the trauma, and increasedarousal—such as difficulty falling or staying asleep, anger, and hypervigilance. Formal diagnostic criteria (both DSM-IV-TR and ICD-10) require that the symptoms last more than one month and cause significant impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning.^[1]
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ptsd

MDD: Major depressive disorder (MDD) (also known as recurrent depressive disorder, clinical depression, major depression, unipolar depression, or unipolar disorder) is a mental disorder characterized by episodes of all-encompassing low mood accompanied by low self-esteem and loss of interest or pleasure in normally enjoyable activities. This cluster of symptoms (syndrome) was named, described and classified as one of the mood disorders in the 1980 edition of the American Psychiatric Association's diagnostic manual. The term "depression" is ambiguous. It is often used to denote this syndrome but may refer to other mood disorders or to lower mood states lacking clinical significance. Major depressive disorder is a disabling condition that adversely affects a person's family, work or school life, sleeping and eating habits, and general health. In the United States, around 3.4% of people with major depression commit suicide, and up to 60% of people who commit suicide had depression or another mood disorder.^[1]
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Major_depressive_disorder

Right now I see a Psychiatrist once every two months, am on some medications. I also see a therapist when I can afford to go. i am fighting for Disability Medical coverage, its been a few months. I will be starting DBT therapy when i get medical also.