Avoiding Reality

I do not think my reality is every one elses and that scares me. I don't think I see the world the way it really is. I always thought I was pretty "normal", but more and more lately I am noticing that my perception of things around me are a bit warped. My anxieties always seemed to me to be correct, and I never understood how others did not feel the same as me. Now I look at my anxiety and see how much it hinders me and I know I am just being an idiot. Like I am afraid of left hand turns and avoid them with all cost if I actually drive. My husband has always just smiled off my issues and keeps on going. I cannot be around alcohol, people drinking or it being poured in restaurants. I get very uncomfortable when around anyone who is consuming any type of alcohol. I think very negative and hateful thoughts about those people also. I am afraid of merging onto highways, going over 45-50 mph throws me into a panic attack. I cannot be around the Amish, I cannot stand them or the sight of them. I cannot breath around them. Yes, I know some of my anxieties deal with bad things in my past. I cannot seem to let go, no matter how hard I try. will I ever be "normal"?