Fighting for proper mental health care

Fighting for healthcare.....has been pure hell!!!! I am one of the lucky Americans that have spent months fighting for medical coverage through the state because I cannot afford to purchase my own. I know I am mentally disabled and if really frustrates me when I have to miss important appointments and therapies or miss medication doses due to lack of funds. I am on my 2cnd appeal for medical coverage through Medicaid Disability. Everyone in the office says each time that I should be getting it, I am a prime candidate for it, but low and behold I am still being turned down and forced to be even more stressed out. I have to put out $20/ week for my therapist. Almost $100/mth for my medication. About $100/mth in gas to get back and forth between all my appointments. I am supposed to be going to therapy 3x a week and my Dr wants me to start DBT therapy soon. I cannot do that until I am covered by insurance. My poor husband works his ass off for a minimal wage job that do not care about their employees, making under $10/hr after being there for almost 20 yrs. He has applied to many places, but he is in his 50s and people just are not hiring his age group in our area. I tried babysitting to make extra money and that partly led to my breakdown and subsequent hospitalization. I do surveys online for GC to offset some cost of our needs and maybe a few wants for my kids. We do nothing fun really.....hoping to change that this coming year for my kids sake. I feel really bad for them. As my emotions run rampant and my depression runs deep, I see no way out most of the time. I am sad to say that I have continued to cut myself almost daily, feeling a bit better each time I draw blood. Why is that, why does physical pain feel better than emotional pain? I don't know if I will ever know. If you feel the want to help me financially in anyway I have added a donation button. This will go 100% to my mental health appointments and gas. Thank you everyone.